Blogging Less and Less :O

Someone else is using my quotes for blog titles now :O So I can never think of anything good for mine anymore :S
I missed a super fun party bus to comfort mah sick girlfriend. And while the party bus sounded really fun,  I am very glad I stayed with the Sea Otter :) We had a good time :P Mostly just watching movies and stuff and just general being-with-each-other-ness

Life is pretty good right now :D There's only one thing. And I don't know why it annoys me :O I can't explain it! Sometimes the relationship between the Sea Otter and the Sea Anemone bugs me D:

But I really don't know why it bugs me :S I don't think it should... It's little things that will set me off :S And I really truly do not know why they bug me. And they ask me why and I can't explain it and then that makes them annoyed D: They think I'm just not telling them but I really don't know! But it keeps bugging me! I think it's a bit of jealousy. I feel like if I can't give the Sea Otter what she needs she will just go to the Sea Anemone. The Sea Otter was trying to get me to blog (before I started writing this) and I didn't feel like it. So she asked the Sea Anemone to blog :O And when she did that I got this horrible feeling D:

I can't think of any other examples off the top of my head because when people tell me to blog I don't have it really fully prepared in my head :S So the blog isn't as good. I remember the good old days when one blog was one really long fleshed out idea...

I have a lot of things on my mind that I'm thinking about right now. And I know I've been blogging less and less lately. And I feel like it might be because I'm getting less and less comfortable putting things out there. There are some things I should keep to myself. Because people over react to things.

And I feel like I have so much to say. But I can't put it into words. I don't know what I'm feeling. And people bug me to blog and I don't want to right now. I just don't.

As I said before. I miss when I used to blog with a real purpose. Now I blabber endlessly..with no real focus. I want to wait until I can really really realllly blog.

I have a relationship and I could blog about that. But I know she'll read it. And knowing that might change what I say. And does it matter if I'm only going to say good things? I don't know. I think it gives the things less value. Am I really saying them because I feel them or only because it makes her happy? I think it's because I feel them! But sometimes I worry it's not. Like I'm playing some elaborate trick on myself :S

I do have one conclusion. I hate the noise msn makes. It makes me want to punch things. Like a lot.... And I don't know how to turn it off! >=

FUCK. I'm taking a break from blogging. I'm sorry readers D: Who await my every word! Drooling over your computers in anticipation.

I will return! BETTER THAN EVER!